Total Random “I haven’t blogged in a month” Post.

I have seriously neglected this blog for a while. Not on purpose, I have so many things to write about, it’s just finding the time to sit down and get it all out.

We had a crazy busy holiday month with Harper’s 3rd birthday:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Oh that smile, kills me.

Christmas celebrations at the Botanica Gardens light show:

 

 

 

Christmas Eve:

Poor girl was sick on Christmas Eve. Go figure.

 

 

 

Aaaaand, I have NOTHING from Christmas day. Yup, Mommy fail. I was too busy enjoying it and being with family. I DID manage to squeeze in a photo sesh with Miss Collins:

 

 

 

 

 

 

And now it’s January and with that brings a whole new set of “stuff”

*I put my 2 weeks in at the Y. Say wha-at!! I did. It wasn’t an easy decision. I have worked there since we moved here to El Dorado 4 years ago.  It’s been a great place to work and I have met SOOOO many people working there. Why did I decide to leave?

Well chill out and I will tell you!!

*I start school in 2 weeks- My online courses to finish my degree start on the 22nd. Super excited, but super scared to do online classes. I consider myself pretty computer smart; I designed my own website, I do all the stuff on this blog, I FACEBOOK!!  But seriously this online bizz has me thrown for a loop. I am blaming K-State’s website and student portal, I think IT is the one that is dumb, not me. I literally had to call up the financial aid office and ask them to walk me through what I was supposed to do, because their e-mail and website was gibberish to me. They were probably like “geez old lady, get with the program, it’s not THAT hard. Stupid non-traditional students.”

*I started watching an 8 week old baby- Landry is a doll and I have enjoyed having him so much. He is such a good baby, and I am able to get my baby fix and still sleep all night!! Pax woke up this morning (Saturday, mind you) at 7:30 and looked at me and said “we need to get up, Landry is coming.”  Ok Buddy, knock yourself out waiting for that to happen, I’m going to keep sleeping.

*I started my photography business- It’s getting really busy already. I am booked every weekend in January, newborn session scheduled for February, a WEDDING scheduled in May, and it just keeps growing. This is my true passion and I want to devote as much time and attention to this. Do I know what the future holds? Nope. Do I know if this will work out? Nope. Do I have plans to make it even bigger and better? Yup. I don’t want to divulge too much right now, as a lot of things are still getting ironed out, but there are big things… BIG THINGS in store with this photography thing and with some great people who I will potentially be working with.

I can’t even tell you how excited I am for all of this, I feel that I have found “my thing.” I was always jealous of Josh because our restaurant business was “his dream” and he loved doing it. I wondered if I would ever find anything like that for myself. Don’t get me wrong, I love being with my children, and I have loved being home with them most of the time while working at the Y. Now they are getting older and I am able to focus on me. I am not trying to be selfish and OBVIOUSLY my kids will always come first. I mean who else is going to feed, bathe, and teach them that “son of a bitch” is not a polite thing to say? Please, if you find someone, send them my way. MMMMKAY?

On that note, I leave you with this:  A comedic GENIUS that I just found today. I mean, this girl is HILAR! (That’s my shortened version of hilarious). I spent about 2 hours of my life today watching her channel on YouTube. Oh Grace, you got me girl, you got me goooood. Fist bump to you my friend.

 

You’re welcome.

No Words……

 

“Mom, why did that boy do that thing to all those kids?”

I pause, with my hand on his door, and turn to look at my innocent little 5  year old tucked safe in his bed.

I kneel by his bed, with tears in my eyes, and try to find the words to explain something that I don’t understand myself.

“I don’t know buddy.”

“Did it hurt?”

“No baby, God was with those kids that day and he put a giant blanket around them and they didn’t feel anything at all.”

He seems satisfied with that answer and rolls over, hugging his Curious George closer to him.

Why am I having to answer questions about this? Why am I living in a country where little kids now have to fear going to school? Why do I have to explain to MY 5 year old, that kids his own age were innocent victims in a horrendous crime? It makes my heart break in a million little pieces.

Pax said he overheard Josh and I talking about it, I thought I was doing a good job sheltering him from all of this. I guess not, and really, there is no easy way to discuss something like this with a small child. They don’t teach this in parenting classes.

“Ok class, so that’s how you change a diaper, next class we will discuss how to talk to your child after a mass shooting at an elementary school.”

I never thought I would have to have a conversation about this………with my 5 year old…….who is now a little less innocent since this happened.

I hope things change, something has to. Or else I fear the world my children will have to grow up in.